I got a pickle. I got a pickle! I got a pickle hey, hey, hey, hey!

6 Jul

 

 

I’m in a pickle.

And a little frustrated with myself.

I had the pleasure of spending the past few days with three of the most adorable kids evah! Oh yeah, and their mom and dad. 🙂

Cute kiddos need to have their cuteness documented for Uncle Brian and Auntie Lo. That means pictures!

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This is where the pickle comes in.

I know feel all some of these pictures are uh, less than flattering

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Despite losing 30 pounds.

And here’s my pickle.
I know I need to be healthier. Not skinny, but losing (mor

e) weight is part of getting healthy. Dirty words…

I have been working so fricken hard but *I* can’t see the results of my hard work.

I know my body is changing, but all I see when I look in the mirror or at pictures is the arm flab, thunder thighs, chipmunk cheeks and flab-tastic belly.

And I want to give up.

I feel like I’m failing in getting healthy.
If I’m failing despite all the work, what’s the point?

Seriously. Someone, please, tell me what the point is because I can’t see it.

Bueller…
Bueller?

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9 Responses to “I got a pickle. I got a pickle! I got a pickle hey, hey, hey, hey!”

  1. Katrina - @craftsbykatie July 6, 2011 at 10:15 am #

    The point is that you’re doing this for you. You’re doing this for your hubby. You’re doing this for your future family. You’re doing this because you’re awesome. It will take a while but you’ll start to see the changes. Remember that we’re our own worst critics and we’re the last one to see the positive changes in our bodies. Remember that you have Rach and I to support you and to kick your ass when necessary. You’re not giving up. You’re not allowed. Mama Katie says so.

    PS I’m impressed that your phone managed to strike out not just your post but your entire site. Don’t be frustrated, be amused at the wonders of technology.

    • smallworldbiggirl July 6, 2011 at 3:59 pm #

      I’m just really discouraged.
      I’d LOVE to rewind to a few days ago where I was feeling like I was making leaps and bounds and feeling good about myself.

      I’ll get back there eventually.

      • Katrina - @craftsbykatie July 7, 2011 at 11:54 am #

        You’ll get there. Just remember…hormones are the evil minions of the ninja moles.

  2. minski July 6, 2011 at 4:22 pm #

    Don’t give up, as frustrated as you may be. As unfortunate as it is, doing things the right way is so not easy. And most of the time, it takes much, much longer than we’d like it to. The best things in life take lots of time and effort, so there’s just no way you can give up. Please just give it time – you can do this!!!

    • smallworldbiggirl July 7, 2011 at 12:19 pm #

      You’re so right. I can do this. I WILL do this. I will stumble and struggle, but nothing that’s actually worth doing is easy.

  3. Kelly Kate July 11, 2011 at 10:16 am #

    Don’t give up! It is such an accomplishment that you have already lost 30 pounds and are already much healthier. Here are two sayings / ideas that I always reflect on when something seems impossible. Hopefully you may find them helpful too!

    1) The Japanese word “KAIZEN” means small improvements day after day, continuously. The key aspect of KAIZEN is that it is an on-going, never-ending improvement process. It’s a soft and gradual method opposed to more usual western habits to scrap everything and start with new.

    2) Success is usually the result of a series of small failures without giving up.

  4. myonepreciouslife July 21, 2011 at 5:18 pm #

    You seem to have a good life. Getting healthy will make it last longer and let you enjoy it more. Try to focus on all the new things you can do in your fitness journey and not the things you don’t like in the mirror. For one thing, if you get really healthy, that will take care of itself.

    For another, that stuff isn’t that important. You clearly have a family and a husband who love you very much exactly as you are. You want to do that too. No one’s body is perfect and we are taught to look for our flaws. There will never be an end to that and you will never find satisfaction in it.

    If you have lost 30 pounds already, that’s huge and something to be really proud of. The fact that you’re training for a half-marathon is also really impressive. Don’t look at yourself in the mirror or in those pictures and see arm fat. See the person who is going to finish a half marathon and give her the respect she deserves.

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